Sorry for the delay...

I wrote this last night as I waited for my court appearance... It was such a stupid thing to do and I swear I will never do it again. but anyways here is a note I made on facebook...

Sometimes I feel like there is only this shell of a girl.
Just a smiling shadow,
A passerby to everyday life,
It's weird to go into a room full of mothers and daughters,
And be motherless,
It's hard to try and smile when I feel like I need a good scream,

This heart on my sleeve,
Ripping at the seams,
I'm still alive,
Still breathing,



Sometimes I like to pretend that I can write stuff...most of the time its true but it cant be forced it has to come from my heart. Which sometimes its so clouded and scarred I never know if it's my head speaking or my heart.

Sometimes though isnt that simple it can be real shitty but what can you do? Just give up and let it catch up? oh no darling you gotta keep moving. Sometimes that all you can do is just keep trying and failing at least your making an effort. At least your making a difference in your own life. A great man ( my father) told me once that a mistake is only a waste of time if you dont learn from it.

I love how some people say that just because you are honest and caring sometimes your selfish and cold hearted or think the world revolves around you. Well to most people even if they arent willing to admit it. I honestly think they can have their world revolve around them. Because it is Their world ya know?

I made new Years resolutions about 30 mins before 2009 ended. I hope that I can be strong enough to follow them... They are as follows:

1.Work on Karma:meaning no lying,No stealing treating people how you want to be treated.work on spirituality as well.
2. Enroll in some kind of schooling.
3.Use your planner
4.Keep your job.
5.Be more healthy.

we will see how that goes. :) I also hope to be able to start blogging more as well. just because I feel better after I've vented everything. Well that's all I can think of right now..

Danielle