So my dumb ass didnt pay my phone bill so its going to be shut off..UGH..oh well i guess I can handle not having a phone for a week. -__- Anyways I'm really lost and I dont know what to do... because I've been hanging out with this friend and this friend we'll call them L just so anyone out side of cyber space cant bitch at me. First of all... I must say I'm not a cheater. I'm not one of those girls who makes people fall in love with them and then goes and has sex with someone else. It just kinda happened like honestly one day L and I were hanging out and L held me and kissed me. And I didnt do anything about it. I just took it like an idiot. No we havent had sex and I dont plan to...I'm just so confused because why does it feel right to kiss L and it feels right to kiss Alex?
I feel horrible and I dont know what I'm suppose to do, Well thats a lie I'm suppose to stop talking to L and leave it at that.... But it's easier said then done... To top it off L has this really really close friend and I think they secretly love each other. And it scares me because what if I throw everything that I have with Alex away just to be dumped by L when they realize what the really really close friend means to them.
Moving on because I cant think about it anymore it messes with my head way to much... ha. So I'm turning 21 in 33 days...Not that I'm counting anyway.I cant wait to go to a bar! and party and all that Jazz. Ha. One of my closest friends Brittney. is having a baby! MISS PAYTON RAYE! and I am so excited I'm going to be a auntie! yay! The hard part is her sister doesnt like me very much and I have no Idea why... I mean I dunno what I did to make her hate me so much.. I'm usually a nice person ya know? ugh. I dunno. it's weird...
Samma is coming over tonight and we are totally going to have a blast lol like we always do... At least I hope so. I miss L...SHIT
oxox,
Dani
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